Days 67 and 68 - (Sounds about right)
I've been fiddling manically with com-poo-tah and I think it's more broke now than it was a couple of days ago. Dual monitoring has become a complete no-no. If I have them both running, it offends the computer to the point of it crashing in protest.
Very annoyed with the whole thing and have decided just to leave it till I can get Delll-Dell to fix-fix it for me. If I continue my repair attempts, I'll just get frustrated to the point whereby I might piss away money.
Played in the early evening again, ended up down around $500. Decided to not play anymore at that time (before midnight) as I'm feeling much less invincible about doing so. (Might still have the odd afternoon sesh and see how it goes)
Using just one monitor, four tabling was annoying me. The other monitor is sitting right next to me, mocking me, as if to say, you should be playing six big boy.
"Six six six, all the cool kids play six six six" she whispered enticingly.
So six I played, with a little bit of ovelap. That pissed me off too, having played with no overlap, it didn't feel right.
Then something inside me decided to go for a gay skip in the meadow. Seeing as I'm playing with overlaping screens anyway, why not play 10? The last 60 I played were 10 at a time. I broke roughly even (just getting used to it is my excuse)
I need to speak aloud to myself to keep the focus. That helps me loads, I live by myself so no-one is going to have me locked away for being a loon.
Day 67 and 68 Results : -$308.5 (+$9,489 total)
ROI : 8.6% (after 1,678 tournaments)
Pisch ROI, oh dear. At least I've put 168 more tournamentals in the bag.
I'm very aware that I'm still a while away from 2,000 tournamentals (that'll be halfway fergus 
) and time is slipping by quite quickly indeed.
To that end, I'll try 10-tabling again in my next sesh. Very tentativily though, if it starts to flump up in my face, I'll cut down to 4 or 6 at a time. I may have to turn the classic rock volume up so I can't hear the shrill hollow whispers of the temptress that is my second monitor.
Days 69 and 70 - Friday, as always, was my day off. No poker played, not on the internet anyway. I decided that moving up to 10-tables was probably a bad plan right now. Increasing the number of tables you play at one time is basically stepping up to play a higher limit. You should never step up after a losing session.
On Day 70 I mucked around with a few WSOP satellites. Playing the $5 rebuys, $15 double shootouts and the $30 rebuy into the main event.
Very upset with myself, managed to make it all the way to the final table of a WSOP satellite (the $30 rebuy) with a decent chip lead. 3 seats were being awarded. I donked away my chip advantage and finished in 5th.
We've all been there, you'll know well meaning consolatory congratulations for making it that far and the $700 (ish) booby prize come as litle comfort. I know that I played "controversially" and will have to live with that. It would have been fantastic to qualify for the WSOP in the first satellite I played, it wasn't to be.
A reminder of why I play STT. A 4th place in a sit n go will not affect my mood, nor will 10 of them, or 20 for that matter. Can't quite match the dejection and agony of being within a hair breadth of a $12,000 WSOP package and blowing it. Anyone who can just shrug that off is a better man than me.
What I'm most annoyed about is not coming so close, nor is it that I could have played differently on the final table, it is the way that I'm handling it that is getting to me.
I'm upset at my being upset, if that makes any sense.
I used to pride myself on being able to keep my cool with internet poker and possesing a certain ability to emotionally distance myself from my results. I can't yet do that in multi-table tournaments, especially satellites. My 5th yesterday was a stark reminder that poker is a tough game, and to play it well, to keep my focus at crucial moments, I have a long way to go. Hats off to anyone who plays MTT for a living, I hope to one day, but need to engineer a great deal more mental strength for myself before I do.
At least the 36 regular STTs I played went well.
Days 69 and 70 Results : +$1,008 (+$10,497 total)So I should be happy, I've finally got that comma I've been looking for. I should be happy.......
I'm going to work my WSOP qualification campaign from a seperate bankroll. So any satellites will not be included in the above ROI% calculations, it is just for cash tournaments (I've decided) I've plenty W$ (money that can only be used for WSOP satellites) as I had a good day at the smaller satellites (which are very soft). I should be able to build from that and not need to nip into my main roll. (The $10,497 figure is exclusively the STT proceeds.)
I'm going to play a lot of satellites in my poker career, I'll win some and lose some. This will happen again, the so near but so far syndrome. Next time I'll be able to handle it better. I'm putting what happened yesterday down to experience.
I'm sorry for the above self indulgent, feeling sorry for myself, entry to this thread. Usually I try to avoid that sort of thing.
